Name Wiwit Wido Nengsih 18551066 Subject Creative Writting About My Future

I wanted a perfect ending.
Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme,
and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end.
Life is about not knowing, having to change,
taking the moment and making the best of it,
without knowing what’s going to happen next.
Delicious Ambiguity.

“Gilda Radne”

This June (a month before I turned 21), I was anxious. Realizing that I will turn 21 years old, but I feel that I have not achieved anything (Still in college, not married and not yet working). The anxiety of the future fills my days. I confide in, complaining to Allah.
Then I read a number of events in my life recently, especially during college now, many stories lead to marriage and many of my age got married in the middle of the pandemic starting at that time. But, not a few also failed and ended up becoming single mothers or just widows.
Then I thought it would be better to get married at the same time after Graduation rather than getting married but not for long (sort marriage) And I always stay away from men who are close to me if you want to be serious, because for me I am not ready and it is not yet time for my parents to be proud to have me.
After seeing this incident it reminded me of my parents' marriage They fight almost every day. I don't think I want to have that. Regarding bad marriage, I remembered the prayer of Asiyah, Pharaoh's wife. "O my Lord, build for me a house by Your side in heaven and save me from Pharaoh and his deeds and save me from the wrongdoers. (Surah At-Tahrim [66]: 11).". When I feel sad about my condition, I now remember Pharaoh's wife and then pray O my Lord, build for me a house by Your side in heaven and save me from Pharaoh and his deeds and save me from the wrongdoers. (Surah At-Tahrim [66]: 11). "Apart from that, maybe Allah saved me from wanting to get married.
Based on my observations, if someone's match had arrived all would support from both of them or from the family side but, what I saw was not happening in my family and finally now it's just stories and memories. I'm still single, now I'm grateful. Thankful that God has saved me from that thought and want to focus on completing my education and making my parents proud of me.